Reflections

I'm facing the habits of my youth I'm getting older and now I ask why Why these vices I got this feeling in my chest That pumps fiercely away It's the need to self indulge Paired with anxiety I need a hit Let's take a fucking hit I'll rip my lungs to shreds just to get my fix Feeling the need to consume But falling off the wagon Is not for me I'm high functioning I just need a release Vices tempting me Will I ever lose control, and spiral down? Using bullets to treat the wound A flower fed poison never blooms Each day we march closer to our fate Full of resent for a life that we hate The consequences of my fucking youth I've got to live with this forever I can't go back I can still save this fucking body That I've got left I've only got one life Your judgements of me are unnecessary I'd like to see you do it better Get off my back Leave me be De stress me We all need a fix To scratch that itch I can still hear the laughter Let's reopen that chapter The days before I was in pain And now I've got nothing to gain The consequences of my fucking youth I've got to live with this forever I can't go back I can still save this fucking body That I've got left I've only got one life Your judgements of me are unnecessary I'd like to see you do it better Get off my back Leave me be End me please