selective morality

I remember early that year Spiraling into a friendship That I hadn't predicted I wanted to welcome it For a little while, it felt so clear You were something that I looked forward to I wanted to wipe away your tears But I couldn't reach you Your eyes always speared through mine I felt your stare through the back of my head I lied and told you that I was fine I just needed to go to bed I'm just like you I just (unintelligible) (Still too scared to say that, I guess) All the stupid memories we made Felt like I had known you longer But I know I didn't And if i'm being honest I wish i'd knew more about you Is it my fault Did I not try hard enough Was it the edge of the cuff You're so much better than me I think that you should know Don't ever take the worst for free You catch more than you throw I'm just like you Go on, and be you I was kind of a dick Did a lot a shit I regret but i'm glad we're alright though Or at least I hope so I never really know how to read you Whenever you're about to speak I always think I got you figured out Then you go and ride a different cloud I'd always compared myself to you To the point where I hated your guts In all types of ways I envy who you'd become (Felt kinda good to get that off my chest, I don't know) (Tryna steal my flow) (It's gay... and asian) (My hands are so shaky, I look like an old person) (I'm coming, I'll respond, ugh) I remember late last year Never fell asleep, got to talk to you a lot I think we have the same thoughts I wanted you to be my friend I pray that this'll never end and I get to be There right by your side Your run of the mill "partners in crime" Your mind's a loaded gun You always know what you want I'll never live up to who you're gonna be To who you're gonna be You never even needed me You never even needed me You never even needed me But I needed you I needed you (And it starts with something new) Um, that person's about to park in the not allowed spot... Not good Anyway, um, pick up your phone (please) whore (To replay this message, press one)