Empty

I've been dealing with depression ever since I was a kid Got some skeletons inside my closet better if forbid Watched my step dad beat my momma left a mark I can't forgive And these memories are haunting I can't get them out my head And my demons they are close I practically have made my friend I just sit alone in silence staring at the ceiling fan Tryna gather all my thoughts praying that its not the end Always been an over thinker that's just part of who I am I won't go back to the doctors cause they'll put me on some pills Know I'm not the only one who understands the way I feel Half my family way too envious I made it out the slums While they stuck inside the same fucking position that they was I have tried to make it work all the lies are so absurd Left me miserably unhappy to the point I'm on the verge Could be better could be worse Self indulging in my hurt I should probably move on I think it's time to put me first These voices won't go I'm riding solo Nobody gets me Inside so empty These voices won't go I'm riding solo Nobody gets me Inside so empty Why is everybody dying that I used to grow up with So much hatred in this world they say ignorance is bliss If my thoughts could really kill well I think you know the rest If it wasn't for this music swear to God that I'd be dead And my life an open book I write about it in these songs Been a liar been a thief I've been a victim all along They say karma gonna find you it don't matter where you run Cause your problems will still be there till you fix the damage done Did my father even care? Since he left when I was two Got some questions left unanswered probably best I never knew Dealing with PTSD nightmares when I fall asleep Sense of emptiness inside What you sow is what you reap