Different

When I look you in the lies Something deep inside me dies 'Cause I know you won't get better, better, better You'd rather be right than be loved The only thing I understood Nothing's ever good enough I stumble through the words as they're leaving me Tremble at the sight of Your Majesty And I cut myself just to get them out This time I'll be different, I promise you This time I'll be special, you know I will Just don't leave with me in your eyes This time I'll be better, I want you to know This time I'll be special, oh god, make it so Just don't leave with me in your eyes, your eyes, your eyes You took my youth, you took my health And if you're not here I fight myself You're supposed to make this better, better, better No self-control and no reason why If I don't change, then we both die This is it for you and I Blisters at the end of my fingertips Praying to a god I don't think exist Will you listen now? Can you forgive me somehow? This time I'll be different, I promise you This time I'll be special, you know I will Just don't leave with me in your eyes. This time I'll be better, I want you to know This time I'll be special, oh god, make it so Just don't leave with me in your eyes, your eyes, your eyes Closer now to the end If love was the answer Then hope was the question Closer now, let's pretend We've never been out here before This time I'll be different, I promise you This time I'll be special, you know I will Just don't leave with me in your eyes This time I'll be better, I want you to know This time I'll be special, oh God, make it so Just don't leave with me in your eyes, your eyes, your eyes