Missing

If it were all just gone It just wasn't there Would I disappear? Would I even care? Avoiding the arrangement A blindspot in my mind A space in what's important A black hole of some kind It walks right beside me Invisible to most Not an apparition Not the holy ghost Stumble through another day Not knowing what is wrong Not stolen, not lost or broken Been missing for so long Can't quite find it in me Fading pulse, can I survive? My heart fails me again Flatlined but still alive It walks right beside me Invisible to most Not an apparition Not the holy ghost Dragging it behind me Can't hold on anymore Slips through my fingers And scatters on the floor It hovers right above me As we move from door to door When I hang my head in shame It lies there on the floor Searching for what I may never know It's missing, I can feel it Can't just let it go When I reach out, I can feel it It walks right beside me Invisible to most Not an apparition Not the holy ghost It hovers right above me As I move from door to door When I hang my head in shame It lies there on the floor Talks from inside me Silent to most Not the voice of God Not the only ghost Dragging it behind me Can't hold on any more Slips through my fingers And scatters on the floor It lies there on the floor Missing