Avoidance

The bodies, the bones, the seeds that I've sown All of the moments I regret The bottle of hurt, the pain I deserve It's they bury me or I bury them Bad, bad nights in my failed dreams I like to keep 'em where I can't see Maybe the things I'm avoiding don't really wanna destroy me Maybe they're waiting for me They say, "Face your fears" But every time I do, I cry tears Every time I show up, I show love That's 'cause I sweep it under the rug Avoidance, yeah, that's one hell of a drug It's all smoke and mirrors Yeah, I'm collecting scars like souvenirs And every time I show up, I show love That's 'cause I sweep it under the rug Avoidance, yeah, that's one hell of a drug My anger, my jeans that ripped at the seams All of my long-lost high school friends One step at a time, that's how I get by Yeah, I'm running marathons in my head Maybe the things I'm avoiding don't really want to destroy me Maybe they're crying for me, crying for them I keep running and running I don't know who I'm becoming I want to stop, but I don't know when They say, "Face your fears" But every time I do, I cry tears And every time I show up, I show love That's 'cause I sweep it under the rug Avoidance, yeah, that's one hell of a drug It's all smoke and mirrors Yeah, I'm collecting scars like souvenirs Every time I show up, I show love That's 'cause I sweep it under the rug Avoidance, yeah, that's one hell of a drug Yeah, I'm neglecting therapy I think I know what's best for me 'Cause if I open up the wound I know I won't stop bleeding Smiling through the roller-coaster Highs and lows, I know I'm breathing They say, "Face your fears" But every time I do, I cry tears Every time I show up, I show love That's 'cause I sweep it under the rug Avoidance, yeah, that's one hell of a drug It's all smoke and mirrors Yeah, I'm collecting scars like souvenirs Every time I show up, I show love That's 'cause I sweep it under the rug Avoidance, yeah, that's one hell of a drug Cry At least not tonight I try not to cry At least not tonight I try not to cry At least not tonight I try not to cry At least not tonight I try not to cry