Despair

Pathetic shell of the man that i used to be- I pray it all ends soon Finding comfort in the sadness ive been trapped in - Is all i can do I'm stuck - on my knees praying, begging for more - With no god to be found When I finally bite the bullet, put the gun to my head I can be safe and sound No doubt in my mind I've been Left behind I lay awake - searching for a fucking solution My eyes cried out - awaiting my final conclusion When all is lost You wont find me A worthless man I've come to be Waiting for change in this life of despair I call out for help but no one is there