Darkness

I'm scared of swimming in the sea Dark shapes moving under me Every fear I swallow makes me small Inconsequential things occur Alarms are triggered It's not the way it has to be I'm afraid of what I do not know I hate being undermined I'm afraid I can be devil man And I'm scared to be divine Don't mess with me my fuse is short Beneath this skin these fragments caught When I allow it to be There's no control over me But they do not have me Walking through the undergrowth, to the house in the woods The deeper I go, the darker it gets I peer through the window Knock at the door And the monster I was So afraid of Is curled up on the floor just like a baby boy I cry until I laugh I'm afraid of being mothered With my balls shut in the pen I'm afraid of loving women And I'm scared of loving men Flashbacks coming in every night Don't tell me everything's alright When I allow it to be It has no control over me I own my fear So it doesn't own me Walking through the undergrowth, to the house in the woods The deeper I go, the darker it gets I peer through the window Knock at the door And the monster I was So afraid of Is curled up on the floor just like a baby boy I cry until I laugh