May fly

I got to keep down and rest Stop thinking about time and its heaviness Will I ever be forgiven for this mess? I await for the judge in white To ease my suffer with his verdict in spite Of the fact that I'm already white (that's true) I'm already pale of fright Frightened of the truth that I will have to fight The fright of someone turning of my light You should have taken more precautions they said Put a cap instead of nothing on your head I'm thinking about my next relation And how I will react, before doing the act I'll be rubbered for it that's a fact Will I be able to make and give love again? The situations drilling holes in my brain I don't know who's to blame Will I ever see the birth of my child? Will I ever see my parents die? Will I ever see the birth of my child? Will I ever see my parents die? Will I ever see the birth of my child? Will I ever see my parents die? I feel as eternal as a f***** mayfly Because I'm going round the bend I feel as eternal as a f***** mayfly I just want to know the end I feel as eternal as a f***** mayfly It's really harder than they said I feel as eternal as a f***** mayfly This shit is f***** up my head I feel (Because I'm going round the bend) as eternal as a f***** mayfly I just want to know the end I feel (It's really harder than they said) as eternal as a f***** mayfly This shit is f***** up my head I feel (Because I'm going round the bend, I'm going round the bend) I just want to know the end (what's the end?) It's really harder than they said This shit is f***** up my head