Apologies

When every thought says jump When every thought says Just give up How else can I survive Another day of being alive Caffeine, nicotine, amphetamines Running through my bloodstream Trauma, drama, another vodka Turn into a monster Damaged baggage, turned savage Do it every day, call it a habit You want problems, I got em Keep on sinking never hit bottom All the love you tried to give to me Was never enough, I’m sorry but No amount of love could ever be Ever enough, ever enough I’m sorry, but When every thought says run When I can’t stand to be someone Who’s done the things I’ve done I’ll blame it all on being young Give me caffeine, nicotine, amphetamines Running through my bloodstream Trauma, drama, another vodka Turn into a monster Damaged baggage, turned savage Do it every day, call it a habit You want problems, I got em Keep on sinking never hit bottom All the love you tried to give to me Was never enough, I’m sorry but No amount of love could ever be Ever enough, ever enough I’m sorry, but There’s no saving me I’m sorry, I’m all apologies All the love you tried to give to me Was never enough, never enough I’m sorry, but I’m holding anger like a hammer Leaving all who love me fractured I’m so ashamed I can’t erase it Nothing you can do Is ever gonna change it (It’s never enough) All the love you tried to give to me Was never enough No amount of love could ever be Ever enough, ever enough I’m sorry, but There’s no saving me I’m sorry, I’m all apologies All the love you tried to give to me Was never enough, never enough I’m sorry, but