I've Given Up

Know that I'm gon hurt regardless So I'm pushing through the pain, yeah So I'm pushing through the pain And I know inside my heart That I'm the reason I'm insane, yeah But I'm unsure of how to change I can't see anyone's intentions Especially my own Sick of stressing and second guessing Never pick up my phone Lately, I barely leave my house But it's been a while since I've been home It feels like Everybody seems to want something from me But I don't get much left for myself Push away tryna make room to breathe But nothing seems to help I'm tripping over everything What's wrong with me Tell me why do I hate myself Running in circles until my knees weak I just can't escape this hell And I'm losing my hope That things will ever change Cause I've been lost and alone And afraid to change my ways Getting drunk on the low Shoulda known it would end this way But now I know That nothing good Is ever here to stay I'm all alone Ain't nobody but myself to blame Still waiting for the day I make some new mistakes Cause I can't seem to change It's driving me insane I'm at the bottom Of a hole, I swore I'd never see Again Where I can't tell the difference Between enemy and friend I guess it's all really just the same In the end But maybe its all in my head It's all in my Head And I'm losing my hope That things will ever change Cause I've been lost and alone And afraid to change my ways Getting drunk on the low Shoulda known it would end this way But now I know That nothing good Is ever here to stay