Rather Be Dead

I look in head, I need an answer, always fight the feeling I need some space, I smoke this weed Surpass these thoughts, appealing This death I think about myself while peelin' skin from bones Won't get the phone, not headed home These hoes so prone for love, alone, I Rest with my piece, no peace, these demons in my head still screamin' Sucker want my time, but I'm left on read every time So fuck your feelings Always in my head, know I'm better off dead With these meds in head, I'm spinnin', need bread These bitches want love, fuck 'em, leave 'em on read With these words in head, out of bed, I Write with the lead from my pen, no lead in my head Though rather be dead Better things high off a dose to wreck Manifest my luck though, livin' a mess Fuck it, dead alive, I will own the night Darkness in my sight, Heaven not arrived God in spite of life, quiet now forever leadin' Nothin' always bluffin', fuck it, wanna die Yeah, yeah, fuck it, wanna die I don't know why I try Can't feel anything other than this pain inside my mind Wanna give up and quit I can't stand my pride When I'm down on my luck, wanna just go and hide When the voices in my head just won't be quiet I been feelin' like shit, it ain't no need to try and lie, like Ayy, ayy, do you remember on that day when I looked you in the face? Told you, "I ain't feel the same," and then turned and walked away Yeah, yeah, you ain't know what you say, I was feelin' really brave Started playin' in my grave and suffocatin' from the weight I ain't have no one to catch me When I started fallin' all the way from grace I'm ashamed of the games, like fuck Maybe I'll just give it up Throw it all away for a little bit of fun Just so I can feel alive one more time when I'm numb And I'm feelin' too alone when you call So I don't got the time out my day Just to pick up my phone 'cause it's off while I'm poppin' things To help me kill off some the pain And I don't want to talk 'cause I can't let you see me be this way I know you really hate it when I'm fucked up But I'm fucked up every day Maybe I'll just give it up Throw it all away for a little bit of love Just so I could feel alive without taking all these drugs When I'm feelin' too alone and you call So I'll go make the time out my day just to pick up my phone When it's off 'cause I'm poppin' things To help me kill off some the pain And I don't want to talk 'cause I can't let you see me be this way I know you really hate it when I'm fucked up But I'm fucked up everyday Now, love, fuck