Do I?

We're on some heavy medication And I admit it that you're patient I know I could be a handful Too inconsistent for you to plan for And I don't wanna make my own excuses no more I know that I'm hurting you but don't know what for I've been drinking smoking just vibing hating myself in silence but I like it and I blame it on you I've been saying things but I'm lying so we keep fighting And I don't know why I do I the things I do to you Or Do I? I'm on that heavy ventilation and I got the palpitations I know I can be a handful Too inconsistent for you to plan for And I don't wanna make my own excuses no more I know that I'm hurting you but don't know what for I've been drinking smoking just vibing hating myself in silence but I like it and I blame it on you I've been saying things but I'm lying so we keep fighting And I don't know why I do I the things I do to you Or Do I? I'm on some heavy medication and i admit that you're patient i know i can be a handful I've been drinking smoking just vibing hating myself in silence but I like it and I blame it on you I've been saying things but I'm lying so we keep fighting And I don't know why I do I the things I do to you Or Do I?