Left Behind

I can't shake these memories These memories Keep haunting me, keep haunting me, keep haunting me All alone flipping through my phone staring at pictures Thinkin' how I can't drop an album without sayin' I miss ya Wish that I could sit with you Tell you all the shit I been livin' through Through it all I only regret the shit that I didn't do Lord knows I been living so wrong, for so long, life goes on I know it's a rollercoaster just hold on Tell you what don't fuck around let me tell you something bout Not telling your brother you loved him before they gunned him down Lord knows that I can't cry because I'm out of tears Dehydrated from smokin', drinking and poppin' pills And everybody's tellin' me to calm down and chill And that's real but really you don't know how I feel I don't laugh like I use to I don't cry no more I get high if I need to Save my soul please Lord Walking through these empty rooms trapped inside my mind These memories are all I see from a life I left behind I'm walking down this long hall I don't see a end in sight Even when I squint my eyes Not a bit of light I know I left it on though before I left home Shoulda stopped a while ago for some reason I kept on And I've been slept on walked over and stepped on Drug through mud a dozen times still I crept on The door behind me closed again I felt the breeze Am I inside a dream or are these my memories I know I ain't drunk on misery I have a purpose The demons I battle daily will soon scratch the surface That life I left behind you won't find it, no place With no smile I take another shot of crown, no chase I don't laugh like I use to I don't cry no more I get high if I need to Save my soul please Lord Walking through these empty rooms trapped inside my mind These memories are all I see from a life I left behind Struggle It's been a struggle not to hustle Can't afford more trouble Trying not to fumble Cuddle with the snakes Venom dripping off my denim and they wonder why I'm living how I'm living To get how I've been living gotta live inside my prison Between walls bars on the window gaurds with keys missing Listen to the voices Signs sayin' danger Attack from all angles by the angels with their anger The web that I have tangled wove a rope around my throat So now I'm hanging from the rafters children's laughter now is absent from my castle I'ma bastard and they slander me online with all their banter and their chatter Showered by the clappin' of the crowd and that's what matters I don't laugh like I use to I don't cry no more I get high if I need to Save my soul please Lord Walking through these empty rooms trapped inside my mind These memories are all I see from a life I left behind