Deadlock

Head up I've been told since I'm a kid Keep my head up No matter what it is Don't get fed up Cause something keeps bringing you down Living in this deadlock No matter how it is I've got that dead luck Cause every shot I miss Is this my best touch Or can I find another way out Caught in the middle Of every defence I know the words to the riddles Yet I always forget I tell myself ignore the feelings Cause they're draining me again And if I feel a little sleepy I should go to bed Drunk on a tipple Of liquid regret I've got my finger on the trigger And the other on the pen I rip apart my demons But I'm scared of what gets left Forgetting who's the real me And who is just a shell Head goes black I can't tell If I keep dreaming Cause I'm talking real fast And I don't know what I'm seeing Is it future or the past Never know what to believe in Am I Falling Falling Falling Falling Falling Falling Falling Falling First or last Running races with my demons At the front and back Every side of me is screaming At this whole attack In a war without a reason Is it Falling Falling Falling Falling Falling Falling Falling Falling I've read up On how to get a win Because I'm fed up Of everything within Is this the best I've got To stay on top And not drown Still inside a deadlock No matter how I see it I've got dead luck No matter how I preach it Is my head stuck Talking to the mirror like a clown It keeps reflecting all the visions That I've kept in my heart Where I've built myself in light But the other me in dark And they're fighting for the stage Both are chasing the applause Whilst the real me is caged Watching from afar Puppet in a play I never mastered all the strings In A crowd I give a smile But alone I never win I'm climbing up and down Cause the middles way too thin Up and down Never centred in my skin Black I can't tell If I keep dreaming Cause I'm talking talking fast And I don't know what I'm seeing Is it future or the past Never know what to believe in Am I Falling Falling Falling Falling Falling Falling Falling Falling First or last Running races with my demons At the front and back Every side of me is screaming At this whole attack In a war without a reason Is it Falling Falling Falling Falling Falling Falling Falling Falling I've been lost in the city Just looking for a sign or two And there's maps on the streets And there's parts that I've seen Yet I still I don't know what to do I know this whole damn town From the north to the south Like the scars on the back of my hands Yet I walk through the eaves With no chance of reprieve Cause I still don't know who I am I've been lost in the city In the city In the city In the city I've been lost in the city In the city In the city In the city I've been lost in the city Just looking for a sign or two I've been lost in the city Head goes black I can't tell If I keep dreaming Cause I'm talking real fast And I don't know what I'm seeing Is it future or the past Never know what to believe in Am I Falling Falling First or last Running races with my demons At the front and back Every side of me is screaming At this whole attack In a war without a reason Is it Falling Falling Falling Falling