Shadows

Ayo I'm billing up in Clissold Park It's out the crib again - every other night Surfing at a different friends Caring for your parents gets so hard trying to live with them It's part of the life resenting all that time you have to give to them Tensions start to rise - divides growing bigger They say that time heals - but time can't fix her Start feeling anger - know that you shouldn't be Envying what others have - wondering what could've been Back up in these streets again Traipsing through East again Had to duck my yard - she gone and had beef again She started acting crazy - telling me to leave again I'm packing up some garms walking Stokey high street again (Ayo it's me again) (Can I crash at yours and borrow P again?) It's just that circular lifestyle Had to get my head clear - had to sort my life out It hurts when you look into their eyes and the fire's dim And yeah it's only growing weaker Crushed by the tide all the while we just tried to swim And when that love gets no easier The pity starts to rise no matter how hard you try resist Or when you're trying to replace this Unattached minds trying to thrive in this life of sin Aware of the time that's remaining I said you wouldn't understand I need my mother's hand Don't need no greed from no other man Saying all he need is another grand And so I snap she snaps back like a rubber band And boom I'm out of the house - different couch The same words from a different mouth Saying all we need is to spit it out Cause she's the one I couldn't live without Just another browning They say I'm clowning Trust - am I waving or am I drowning? I can't stay - can't blame my surroundings But can't forget the day that they found him I couldn't move mountains Instead I stood still I couldn't move didn't look real Don't give a fuck how you feel It's too ill, ayo it's It hurts when you look into their eyes and the fire's dim And yeah it's only growing weaker Crushed by the tide all the while we just tried to swim And when that love gets no easier The pity starts to rise no matter how hard you try resist Or when you're trying to replace this Unattached minds trying to thrive in this life of sin Aware of the time that's remaining Sat in the kitchen with the lights off 4 In the morning and I can't sleep Cause every time I drift off it feels like I can't breathe Hear my ribs bouncing with my heartbeat Then my vision slows again It's like I froze again Clutching at my chest Feeling like it's turned to stone again And then that image shifts We're sat up on that bridge side spinning sticks Trade my dreams for your secrets Then the waves turn to static Reminiscing on young Manik lighting zoots off them matchsticks Nah it weren't determined and it's hardly planning And if they never heard me then it hardly happened I'm standing knee-deep in madness Trying to pull it loose in the ICU Hoping mumsy's pulling through Hoping mumsy's pulling through Cause we're desensitised - but we ain't bulletproof It hurts when you look into their eyes and the fire's dim And yeah it's only growing weaker Crushed by the tide all the while we just tried to swim And when that love gets no easier The pity starts to rise no matter how hard you try resist Or when you're trying to replace this Unattached minds trying to thrive in this life of sin Aware of the time that's remaining