Circus

No, this wasn't what I pictured When I dreamed of driving across the desert You and me and Bubba Playing Red Hot Chilli Peppers No, this wasn't what I pictured When I went and joined the circus And now my best friend's in some rehab And I'm touring basements and some churches And I swore I thought I could manifest my happiness, baby And I swore I thought I would be somewhere different But the big wheel keeps on turning around I'm still painting on a smile, trying to hide my frown And when the lights come up, I'm still the same sad fuck Guess the circus wasn't what I thought it was I guess the circus wasn't what I thought it was, yeah No, this ain't what I pictured My soul is busted, I'll admit it I keep checking off my boxes But then, now nothing seems to fix it And I swore I thought I could manifest my happiness, baby And I swore I thought I'd be somewhere different But the big wheel keeps on turning around I'm still painting on a smile, trying to hide my frown When the lights come up, I'm still the same sad fuck Guess the circus wasn't what I thought it was I guess the circus wasn't what I thought it was, hey No, this ain't what I pictured No, this ain't what I pictured When I went and joined the circus, I thought I would find my purpose But I'm still hungry, and I'm still angry And I'm just laughing at myself 'Cause the big wheel keeps on turning around I'm still painting on a smile, trying to hide my frown And when the lights come up, I'm still the same sad fuck Guess the circus wasn't what I thought it was I guess the circus wasn't what I thought it was