Mirrors

And I looked And behold, a pale horse And his name that set upon him was Death And Hell followed with him You have a good depression, face goes blank, no expression Dealin' with some demons, they aggressive Lookin' at the gun on the dresser Got a question, will these thoughts stop if I press it? I don't really want to off myself But I often sit and think, gotta shed a tear like a drop from a faucet Need to talk to a shrink, walk with a priest Wanna fight everybody when I walk down the street Want a problem? Fuck you your honor, never had a father Made me crazy like a motherfucker Came in swinging like Muhammed Ali Frazier born in 1980, started rappin' way before I ever heard of Shady I ain't even know white dudes rap Thought you had to be black for that Had to feel he started jackin' with the hat to match I was rappin' way before I heard of Aftermath I've been feelin' crazy but I've been actin' like I got it all together I've been down lately but Maybe someday I'll get my act together Made it through the bad weather It was okay, but I had better I don't like to look in mirrors 'Cause I don't like lookin' at my face I don't look at my face I don't look at my face I don't look at my face I see you lookin' at my face! Why so aggressive? Say it with my chest, yeah so they get the message I don't mean to text back if you just look away 'Fore I make your head spin like an exorcist Bah, wakin' up from nightmares Heart thumpin', God are you hearin' my prayers? 'Cause I hear the thunder and I don't really like mirrors Someone stares back at me lookin' like my fears The only one that I'm scared of us G-O-D And the old me, drunk or OE And I don't know if you're aware, but I've been slowly Numbing my pains like a OD on codeine Battlin' my demons like it's 106 and Park Medication' sins with some gin, never healed my scar Tryna end part-part of my heart with my art But the dark feels like darts and I don't know where I should start Cause I've been feelin' crazy but I've been actin' like I got it all together I've been down lately but Maybe someday I'll get my act together Made it through the bad weather It was okay, but I had better I don't like to look in mirrors 'Cause I don't like lookin' at my face I don't look at my face I don't look at my face I don't look at my face I see you lookin' at my face! I'm mentally unstable, unable to get a grip That my guardian angel probably thinks I'm a piece of shit Got a mountain of problems and I've been standin' on a cliff Thinkin' maybe I should jump and tell everybody I tripped Can't admit it, but I'm sick, the prescription pills that I get Gettin' harder to swallow and I don't feel like I'm fixed I'm slippin' further and further into the grip of a pit I've been diggin' since I was nothin', a little six-year-old kid Now I'm grown and I'm seein' ghosts Of the man I used to be before I fell into this hole Full of bones, I've been gettin' stoned And it helped me cope with everything beautifully But I wish I would've known bout the lows I moved to the middle of nowhere If I was you, wouldn't go there 'cause I just wanna be (by myself!) Nothin' but some mountains and cold air I got my dogs and I don't care and I did everything (by myself!) I just wanna be in nature Keep erasin' my entire legacy of everything and being famous I'm not a celebrity, I'm a piece of paper That I scribble my thoughts on when they feel dangerous Fuck you I can see it clear You still want Hollywood now I wanna disappear Everywhere I go I see people lookin' at me weird Every time I see a mirror I can't look at my face! I've been feelin' crazy but I've been actin' like I got it all together I've been down lately but Maybe someday I'll get my act together Made it through the bad weather It was okay, but I had better I don't like to look in mirrors 'Cause I don't like lookin' at my face I don't look at my face I don't look at my face I don't look at my face I see you lookin' at my face!