Better The Devil

My first love is back in town I think he's drawing maps with someone else I think the winter's got me down I'll put the blame on anything but myself Yeah, I guess this city's starting to wear me out How much longer 'til I can just lay down? 'Cause I've got that feeling that I can't say out loud And I don't think there's time left to turn around All my friends are getting sober I guess that means that I'm drinking alone They say, "Thank god that this year is over" And, "Do you need someone to drive you home?" Every day's a losing game I'm trying but I just can't get it right You say, "Everybody feels that way" "But we're all going out tonight" I told you that I'd be there but I won't be I think that I should stay home with my body Call a man who hates me, let him hold me Better the devil that already knows me And I want to lay my whole life down at his feet Ask him how the leaving is so easy Tell me, what's your secret, are you happy? 'Cause I think everyone can see right through me