Broken Mirrors

Reflections of a 5-year old lookin' in the rear view Wonderin' why she ain't got a father like her peers do Instead they gotta babysit it, ten years later, been a minute But before you learn to lose trust, it takes a certain limit Product of a single mother, fucked up, when I think of love 'cuz Father figure packed up, it's never been enough So I'm duckin when I catch a feelin', hate is what my heart is spillin' Papa killed this fate, a million times, so how do I forgive him? Pop a pill when pain is killin', poppin veins, the proper feelin' People poppin'-up are just a prop to me, to hurt I'm willin' Porcelain turned poison venom, probably won't prosper when I'm Seed without the poppy, prophecy's the problems pourin' in and Pop that pussy, my position, lyin' more than politicians Call 'em daddy, guys are billin', opposite the opposition Papa's never far from vision, carbon copy pop's reflection Fuck a mirror, it paints a villain, cuz its always papa in em I keep lookin' in the mirror like, lookin in the mirror like - why do I just hate myself? I keep lookin' in the mirror like, lookin in the mirror like - I can't even find myself I keep lookin' in the mirror like, lookin in the mirror like - why do I just hate myself? I keep lookin' in the mirror like, lookin in the mirror like - I can't even find myself I can't find, no, I can't find me, I can't find, I can't find me I can't find, no, I can't find me, I can't find, I can't find me Reflections of a 18, daydream in a motel Bruises and they both swell, he's toxic, but she won't tell He promised but she knows well, he's talking just to cope well And often they don't go well, but options never go well Now I'm laying lifeless, my eyes can't even cry, it's Distracted by the lights that a reflection of my iris Staring at these mirrors on the ceiling He holds me, I can't feel 'em, t hese bed sheets feeling haunted when we in 'em They say 'cuz she's tall and the way that she dresses, right? He rapes it's her fault, she should've been dressin' right Like when they catcall, she shouldn't be out at night But fuck 'em, it's all of them that's been taking away her light So close your eyes, you feel like you stuck Take those hips, you nip and you tuck No consent, he feelin' the rush Feel the burn with every touch Open wide to bruise in the guts Deep inside, you feeling the cuts All these mirrors never enough until you feel you never enough I keep lookin' in the mirror like, lookin in the mirror like - why do I just hate myself? I keep lookin' in the mirror like, lookin in the mirror like - I can't even find myself I keep lookin' in the mirror like, lookin in the mirror like - why do I just hate myself? I keep lookin' in the mirror like, lookin in the mirror like - I can't even find myself I can't find, no, I can't find me, I can't find, I can't find me I can't find, no, I can't find me, I can't find, I can't find me Reflections to a young girl, a queen, and a young me Glass ceilings and these mirrors, these fixtures try to shut me They hope my light broke or maybe I might choke And wait I "shift weight" like walking a tight rope Mirrors that we use ain't a reflection of truth But a direction of you or a correction of you Expectations vs. you, how do you separate the two? When the one inside the mirror ain't as beautiful a view So please, baby don't fold, baby don't go Maybe we losin' control, but don't lose soul When we breathe, feelin' so cold, stories untold 'Cuz what these broken mirrors don't show is my soul Please, baby don't fold, baby don't go Maybe we losin' control, but don't lose soul When we breathe, feelin' so cold, stories untold 'Cuz what these broken mirrors don't show is my soul I keep lookin' in the mirror like, lookin in the mirror like - why do I just hate myself? I keep lookin' in the mirror like, lookin in the mirror like - I can't even find myself I keep lookin' in the mirror like, lookin in the mirror like - why do I just hate myself? I keep lookin' in the mirror like, lookin in the mirror like - I can't even find myself I can't find, no, I can't find me, I can't find, I can't find me I can't find, no, I can't find me, I can't find, I can't find me