lose again

Why everything gotta be a competition The world is so full, and it's filled with optimism Sometimes I don't feel like livin' I guess I'm better than I was in the beginning Well, it's okay Fuck it, doing this today, fall in love, I get away Things are really not the same, I know it's hard to stay Some things are so pitiful, rip my heart down to my core This love is so magical, what are you here for? I might have to run it back, you give me a heart attack I don't know what I lack, runnin' building up my cardio I know it'll get better, but I don't know where I started at Everything around me, it all just starts to collapse Now I'm giving up 'cause I know that it won't get better in the end And I'm breakin' these walls 'cause I'm better than he could've ever been Why are you even trying if you knew it was better back then? I can't even keep going on 'cause I can't lose a friend I can't give in, I been at my worse I don't really wanna lose again I can't give them what they really want 'Cause I don't even have enough