Heart Attack

7 AM and the kitten jumps On top of the TV so innocently And knocks the antenna off onto the bed And it lands on the chest of this little ball of stress 7 AM and the pendulum swayed I hear myself cry out in peace and in pain The time bomb explodes and my heart ignites With a burst of white light pure as the first taste of life It paralyzed and freed me, it stunned and released me It summarized me in a word I can't say And all of my life was shown to me at once And I saw the total of who I'd become As if in the end we add up to a number Like finding the answer to all that you are Afraid if I move I might trigger my own death So gently I cling to control over my breath My left shoulder burning from all I've been carrying Buried alive under my collapsed chest I lift as my sense of what matters has changed For I saw the eyes of a heavenly face That waits in a place that I no longer fear As I cherish my every last day I'm still here I'm still here I'm still here I'm still here I'm still here I'm still here I'm still here What probably will get me is a car crash in Jersey And I just can't wait anymore