does it really matter?

I don't think you understand I feel lonely in the crowd And I don't know why I'm like this But I rather be just by myself Yeah I made excuses just to get away I tell you maybe when I know I'll stay I make plans with myself cause I'm scared to go out And all of my friends they don't call me no more I guess they are tired of me saying no All I need was space and time But does it really matter if I'm staying up till 4 drinking on my own? Does it really matter if I'm sleeping all alone waiting for the sun to Rise again Baby I'm falling Down again I don't think you know me well I don't think I know myself Smile when the camera's out But honestly that's someone else And every party, oh it's way too loud Hate all these bottles that I can't pronounce I don't know what I want but i know it probably isn't this I guess I should learn but I never do Cause I always end up back in my room Cause what I needed was just space and time But does it really matter if I'm staying up till 4 drinking on my own? Does it really matter if I'm sleeping all alone waiting for the sun to Rise again Baby I'm falling Down again