Growing Up

Ask him where he at though, on a backroad Tryna press rewind to a time before that time was gone Before the last words we spoke Before that's all she wrote Maybe it's just part of growth, I don't know it's difficult I guess it's just growin up, you can't control much The money in the bank could be a lot but never be enough Talking like we know something Hide the emotion of losing love when we were young It's just part growing up Oh me oh my, been a long few months asking Who am I, something's different I can feel it And I realized, where I was ain't where I'm at Changing culture vibes, got me flipping what I've written I'm just tryna survive Tryna open up the doors but they tight bruh Tip toeing got me walkin on a tight rope I ain't scared of falling, I'm just scared I'll fall slow Enough to realize I had false hope And I know now that nobody sticks around forever When you figure out it's part of life you start to settle Rippin out your heart, take the beat, sing acapella Shhh, quiet though cause you know you lost your incentive Guess we gettin to the dough, cheddar Cheesing, maybe fake but no one knows better Fake it til you make it So they'll say "go getter", that just left a broken heart Write a broken letter But I will not forget her nah And I guess for now I gotta wonder where it's gone What I feel here, just reminds me I ain't home I know the spring comes even if it's feeling cold I'll never be alone, but might be better on my own Though, on a backroad Tryna press rewind to a time before that time was gone Before the last words we spoke Before that's all she wrote Maybe it's just part of growth, I don't know it's difficult I guess it's just growin up, you can't control much The money in the bank could be a lot but never be enough Talking like we know something Hide the emotion of losing love when we were young It's just part growing up I didn't always listen to the words that they would say That seasons come and you might grow But then they go and change And when the chapter ends, you gotta turn the page Be careful how you live Cause it'll haunt you if you stay So used to call me kinda cute I guess we changed the angle I miss the days when my worst problem was a rolled ankle Or when success wasn't measured by some bank rolls I've always measured my success on if my heart's pain is low It sounds depressing, my confession I stay stressing bout every time I messed up And I miss him, who is him? He's me But just me on the days I had direction Even now I'm steady steppin But it's hard to work through this hell of a lesson Time is change, careful spending cause it's borrowed If I'm honest I'm still working through the sorrow I'm just gonna lay low So I guess until tomorrow Ask me where im at, I'm on a backroad Cause I can't rewind to a time before my heart broke Thankful for the words we spoke And I know it hurts But I'd never change it even though it's difficult Cause it's part of growin up And I know it's tough To lose control and feel like all you've done is messed it up I might not know much, but I know enough To tell myself when I was young Don't be afraid to lose love, it's just part of growing up I guess if it was real, I'm just happy that it showed up Don't be afraid to grow up