HEALING

Yo Sometimes I just wonder Am I bein' stopped from goin' under? Through the rain and the thunder Make another move, then I ponder Never save face, not a stunter Never been the prey, but a hunter No, ponce, I'm a hustler Play the hands I was dealt, not a shuffler Move, shift, well equipped Feel, resist, hit and miss Every time I feel my goal might be a myth God comes with the assist, like I insist Fawn, freeze, pause, breathe Need to grieve, feel at ease Another mistake, then I lose faith Self-hate, all I think about is what awaits Maybe I need healin', I been tryna find a reason I been fightin' all my demons, and I find it hard to breathe in I know that I been bleedin', I can't hide all of my lesions I been waitin' for my season, I don't know what to believe in Maybe I need healin', I been tryna find a reason I been fightin' all my demons, and I find it hard to breathe in I know that I been bleedin', I can't hide all of my lesions I been waitin' for my season, I don't know what to believe in Yo, imagine me never really doin' right by me Playin' an actor in the movie when I am Spike Lee Internalisin' all the BS people would type me Saying everything and anything to just spite me Jealousy, in my face, bitches would hype me Then turn around behind my back and go and just bite me I don't take lightly, rather them fight me Hopin' that I'm gonna crash out so they can write me off Going bigger, they can't measure Rock steady, never been the type to fold under pressure Fortune teller, I'ma keep goin' forever and ever 'Til I'm deader, they don't want beef, they softer than leather, uh Target killer, yes, I'm over zealous Never gave a fuck what people tell us Bread, cheddar, dough, cabbage, lettuce Need that GBP and all the other letters Maybe I need healin', I been tryna find a reason I been fightin' all my demons, and I find it hard to breathe in I know that I been bleedin', I can't hide all of my lesions I been waitin' for my season, I don't know what to believe in Maybe I need healin', I been tryna find a reason I been fightin' all my demons, and I find it hard to breathe in I know that I been bleedin', I can't hide all of my lesions I been waitin' for my season, I don't know what to believe in