Do You Mind

I waste my time on my whole life Hold my thoughts 'cause I've been sleep deprived I waste my life in broke mind Hold my words 'cause they never come out right I'm trying really hard to be someone you'd like I'm trying really hard to feel like I'll be fine I'm trying really hard and maybe I'll find my reflection in life ain't all that unkind Cant I be a little self sure Self secure On that I'm not all that I think I am Cant I get a little control Open my doors On that I'm not all that bad as I think i am I don't really care for what I have left Because I've fucked myself up so much, I might deserve this mess and Fuck all this love because I hate to admit That I'm really like this I'm a scum, piece of shit I know I could be brighter I know I could aim higher And know I should think lighter I know I would be fine if I was a tryer I hate how I can't let myself hang low If I didn't speak at all I think that I would let it go But if I knew I hurt, well, I would promise to let you know that I've been feeling godamn low And I just can't let it go Do you remember 2013 From then on I wished my life was unseen 'Cause I hate who I could have been Let myself slit up my skin And drowned all my dreams Gone down the sink and I'm sorry maybe I should have tried harder Jumped of a bridge that was just that little bit higher I'm sorry, my words can't be any sharper but I'd cut up my mind and then I've set that remains on fire At least you could have said that I'm gone on the drugs But I am sober now and I still don't seem to fuck up And I am sorry I can't accept all your love It wears me off Leave me in my head because that's already tiring enough Waste all my life and my whole life Hold my thoughts 'cause I've been sleep deprived Waste my life in my broke mind Hold my words 'cause they never come out right I'm trying really hard to be something you like I'm trying really hard, if you like, I'll be fine I'm trying really hard, maybe I'll find the reflection in life ain't all that unkind